i have created such a notes and writing hell mess for myself. i am juggling three different notebooks and moving between three different computer programs trying to figure out which one i want to Actually Use and mostly what i've figured out is that all of them is way too scattershot and silly.

that said i am also going through a "multiple books open and upside down on the floor" kind of phase and i think externalizing some of my mind chaos in a way where i can maybe materially find the order in it if i set my attention that way.

why am i all loose run-on sentences lately. very strange.