mostly a note to say i am alive. life is changing. i noticed that i haven't written in my journal in over a month. i may have fallen out of touch with myself over the past several weeks. i may habitually get like this around fall, which is funny because i also like to think that fall is my "favorite season".

some things i do for love / some things i do for money / it ain't like i don't want it / it ain't like i'm above it. about two and a half months ago, i quit my old job in order to take a new job which is very much like my old job, but with more responsibility and much more pay. with my sign-on bonus, i bought one semimodular synth, and then i bought another, and now i think i'm good on synths for a while. i have been sometimes recording and putting jams here: https://stash.distant.homes/jams/

for as much as things are changing, my struggles remain obstinately the same. skill issue. i am certain that what i need is very simple. i have yet to get out of my own way.